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swapped my innocence for pride
apocalyptica (feat. adam gontier) :: "i don't care"
i try to make you see my side
always trying to stay in line
but your eyes see right through
that's all they do
calexico :: "alone again or"
i won't forget all the times i waited patiently for you
and you'll do just what you choose to do
and i will be alone again tonight, my dear
breaking benjamin :: "sooner or later"
Why am i so pathetic
i know you won't forget it
just call my name, you'll be okay
...
go ahead and throw my life away
the weakerthans :: "anchorless"
shoebox full of photos; found a grainy mirror
sunken cheeks and slender hands
grocery lists and carbon-copied letters offer silence for my small demands
hey, how'd you get so anchorless?
alice in chains :: "again"
why, why you slap me in the face?
i, i didn't say it was okay
...
you violate a part of me again, again, again and again
cold war kids :: "hang me up to dry"
all mixed up in the wash
hot water bleeding our colors
...
you've wrung me out too, too, too many times
matchbox 20 :: "stop"
you'd better stop, stop, stop using me up
you'd better stop 'cause i've had enough
and i'm ready to forget the reasons keeping me here
the beatles :: "nowhere man"
doesn't have a point of view
knows not where he's going to
maroon 5 :: "not coming home"
i'll bet it hurts so bad
to see the strength that i have shown
when you answer the door, pick up the phone
you won't find me, 'cause i'm not coming home
franz ferdinand :: "walk away"
and i am cold
yes, i'm cold
but not as cold as you are
i love the sound of you walking away
( Notes. )
there's a world of war
empires :: "spit the dark"
if hope is a dangerous hole, will you join me?
jump; there's a world of war
will you join me?
eyes closed for lives to open up, to open up
alice in chains :: "rotten apple"
innocence is over
ignorance is spoken
...
what i see is unreal
i've written my own part
a.f.i. :: "bleed black"
i am destroyed by the inside, i disassociate
i hope to destroy the outside
it will alleviate and elevate me
like water flowing into lungs,
i'm flowing through these days
apocalyptica :: "grace"
(instrumental)
celldweller :: "under my feet"
so this is how it feels to suffer
and i had too much to say
but it's over now and i'm going down alone
Author:
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blindmadnessWord Count: 1248
Pairing: Mostly gen, but some mention of past Angelina/Monroe
Rating: PG-13 for some allusions to sex-like pasttimes
Fandom: Grimm
Summary/Notes: Written for this prompt on the Grimm kink meme. Basically, the process of Monroe's reformation to a big not-so-bad wolf.
( It doesn't get easier. It's never going to be easy. He's going to be working on it until the day he dies. )
Author:
blindmadnessWord Count: 945
Pairing: Michael Phelps/Jonathan Horton, in a very slight barely-there preliminary-ish sort of way
Rating: PG for cursing
Fandom: Olympics (swimming/gymnastics)
Summary/Notes: Takes place the afternoon of Monday, August 11 Beijing time -- after the men's 4x100 relay but the day before the men's gymnastics team finals. Basically just me briefly getting the idea to write something with my two favourite Olympians, realizing I didn't have too much of a plot, and going for it anyway, so it doesn't really end so much as... trail off. My very first foray into the exciting and fertile land of Olympicslash! /o\
( He makes it happen. Always, right on, seriously, /amazing/. I'm telling you guys, he's /it/. )
Author:
blindmadnessWord Count: 1208
Pairing: Frank Iero/Gerard Way
Rating: PGish
Fandom/'Verse: Bandom; Belleville-and-Wilmette-'verse
Summary: When the Princess of Belleville enters the rooms meant as workplaces for the Prince of Belleville, he finds his husband -- likely one of the strongest sorcerers in the land, the second (or third, depending on who you ask) most powerful man in the kingdom, and heir to a crown dating back thousands of years -- poking his finger delightedly into a hole in the wall.
Notes: Post-And I Dream Of What I Need and fully a canonical part of this 'verse. Written quickly and haphazardly and un-beta'd-ly for
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lyo's request for fluff, and I really hope that this helps. ♥ (Returning to this corner of the 'verse makes me really happy, also. :>)Warning: This 'verse contains glossed-over-specifics!mpreg. That is all.
( You're usually pretty busy off doing -- whatever things you do that I don't know how to do yet. Maybe trying to beat up people who still don't think I'm a good prince or something, for all I know. )
Author:
blindmadnessWord Count: 10340
Pairing: In order of appearance: Gabe Saporta/Vicky-T Asher, sort of pre-Alex Suarez/alwaysagirl!Ryland Blackinton, pre-Gerard Way/Lyn-Z Ballato, Ryan Ross/Keltie Colleen, Spencer Smith/Haley SOMETHING (with briefly-mentioned offscreen Jon Walker/Cassie SOMETHINGELSE, Brendon Urie/Joe Trohman, and alluded-to Tom Conrad/Sean Van Vleet), Pete Wentz/Mikey Way, and Patrick Stump/Greta Salpeter
Rating: PG-13, for cursing and brief sex references.
Fandom/'Verse: Bandom; college AU
Summary: The aftermath of a famous Pete Wentz Party on the campus of an unnamed college; six intertwined ficlets in one 'verse.
Notes: This is for
lessthangreat's birthday and it's three weeks late -- it's also much, much longer than any of the other birthdayfics I wrote, which I feel kind of guilty for. /o\ But I have always, always wanted to write a college AU -- and, as I told sunktheglow just the other day, the only thing I love more than college AUs are multiple fics within the same college AU 'verse -- and this was just so much fun to do. I HOPE YOU LIKE IT, JERI, HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY. ♥♥The picture prompts I received for the fics are linked in the subtitles of each one -- you can probably see where I got some of them, while some are a little more obscure. Fic betaed by the amazing and wonderful
peridium! ♥ (Subtitle of the fic also stolen from her assessment of the pairings involved! Name of alwaysagirl!Ryland stolen from chmclfairytales because I never could have come up with it on my own. ♥)( Everyone knows that Pete Wentz's parties, to put it bluntly, fucking /rock/. )
Author:
blindmadnessWord Count: 2155
Pairing: Sylar/Mohinder Suresh
Rating: Um, probably R.
Fandom: Heroes
Warning: Uhm, this was meant to be there'safinelinebetweendubconandnoncon, but it strayed closer to the noncon side of the line, I think, so yeah. D:
Summary: For
zeitheist for her birthday, and I am seriously reconsidering the wisdom of having dug out this idea for it because I'm paranoid about this one, too. /o\ Also my first foray into Heroesfic at all, let alone this, so augh.Basically, I have Lots of Thoughts about how Sylar/Mohinder is usually portrayed in fandom, and they can be summed up by OH MY GOD WHAT THE FUCK DOMESTICITY MAJA SMASH. I said to myself, if I ever write Sylar/Mohinder, it will damn well be complicated and creepy and not fluffy in the least. ...and, um, it was! I think. I also haven't watched Heroes in a long, long time, so yeah. >__>; (Also, it's set between the seasons because I like S1!Mohinder better, dammit.) I hope it worked out decently? ♥ And once again,
peridium and her five-second betaing are awesome. :D( Mohinder dreams of Sylar that night. )
Author:
blindmadnessWord Count: 1210
Pairing: Pete Wentz/Mikey Way
Rating: PGish, probably? I'm so bad at this.
Fandom: Bandom
Summary: For
citiesasleep for her birthday! ♥ I was planning on apologizing here since it's not very happy (if not nearly as angsty as I thought it might be), but then I was like "...wait, it's Pete/Mikey." This is also my first time writing them and I'm secretly terrified that someone is going to jump at me and be all WHAT THE FUCK, BITCH, YOU GOT EVERYTHING WRONG >:((((, so um. /o\ Yeah. I hope you like it and it doesn't totally suck! :D; Many thanks to peridium for five-second-betaing. ♥( Together, they watch sunsets. // Apart, they watch sunrises. )
Author:
blindmadnessWord Count: 7000
Pairing: Jon Walker/Spencer Smith
Rating: Probably about PG-13 for cursing and mentions of sex
Fandom/'Verse: Bandom; Pygmalion and Galatea AU
Summary: Every single person in the world who's ever created the perfect man, even in their minds, and wished he could be real, Spencer thinks darkly, is seriously lucky that no one exists to grant their wishes. Boy sculpts statue, statue comes to life, boy develops crush on statue-turned-boy, boy freaks the fuck out about how awkward his life is.
Notes: As always, much thanks and love to
e5chat for being the crazy amazing enablers that they are (<33333); also many thanks to lessthangreat and peridium for betaing. :D ♥ This fic (being the first real bandom fic I ever started, omg) has fueled a new desire for me to fuse my dorkiness about Greek mythology and my love for bandom, so definitely look for more like this once I think of what to do next. \o/( And then it hits Spencer again, past the vague embarrassment of finding his statue attractive -- his statue's alive, breathing, talking, playing the fucking /bass/, and he sort of feels like fainting again. )
